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..can you help me i'm bent.. [19 Mar 2004|08:10am] [ mood | apathetic ] [ music | Everybody hurts..sometimes.. ] Close your eyes, your beautiful when you're sleeping.  Tonight may all your dreams come true. Its so nice to hold you while your sleeping, when I'm sleeping next to you. What we got is something special, and what we are is a perfect match. The three-thousand miles can never come between us, no matter what we do its always you and me, and its always me and you.  I know somtimes its lonely while you're sleeping, well its lonely for me too. Its alright just to know that while I'm sleeping, that im dreaming of you. We always have the stars to wish upon from where I'm at and where you are.  I'm lifted by your words. They mean so much. It's been so long since I've smiled. You bring me new life. Is this a dream? If so I don't want to ever wake. Let me sleep forever. Embrace the moment, it's too good to last for long. Although I wish it could. Don't leave me now, It's too hard.. To stand without you. way to feel alone..:*o(                              1 comment|post comment

..you're my everything.. [17 Mar 2004|05:14pm] [ mood | numb ] [ music | nada ] "Don't you know you are my everything and don't you know you make my heart sing you've turned my world inside out now i know what life is about and it's you i can't live without you say for now just let me be you say for now i will be beat and i'll wait until you smile and you make my heart stand still." I had a really rough day today..I was fine up till the middle of third period..I don't know what happened. Something just snapped and I got sad and depressed and started crying. I called my mom and argued with her about letting me come home and she finally called my guidance counselor to let me come home. I came home and slept and watched tv for like the entire day. I don't know what's wrong with me :o/ Oh well hopefully I can get myself fixed up..:o/ thats all for now.. post comment

..on my way.. [16 Mar 2004|05:02pm] [ mood | lonely ] [ music | TRL - J-Kwon - TIPSY ] I would have to say, today was actually a pretty good day. I was actually on time to school today!! umm..I did absolutely nothing first-fourth period. We had an assembly 2nd period..that's good..it shortened the classes up. Everyone was waiting for snow today. People were looking out the windows constantly. The snow started fourth period when I was walking from NHS to Naramake to play with the kiddies..It started snowing really hard when I was walking back over. I got into the school and one of the teachers told me we had a one hour early dismissal..Now wtf is that lol..hey im not complaining..we didn't have to go to 7th period..I honesltly hope we don't have school tomorrow.. umm..I got home and I watched the movie Pretty Woman..very cute..thats about it.. my mom wants me to make dinner [[that's def. not happening]] and I think I may go to the gym.. It's much needed :o/ I made a subprofile...yup yup lol check that out if ya want. My face is just breaking out more and more..My mom doesn't want to pay for a dermatologist visit and wants me to try the shit u can get from the shelves. I guess I'm just gonna have to go myself. I got a really cute picture of neice and nephew..here it is.. aren't they soooo cute!! awww..yup yup!! so anywho..I'm bored as hell..I think I'm gonna go take a nap..toodaloo!! byee... I know somewhere..somehow-we'll be together ..let your waves crash down on me and take me away -Yellowcard post comment

..what?? lol .. [14 Mar 2004|10:10am] [ mood | confused ] [ music | the washing machine ] You are Marilyn Monroe. You seem happy on the outside, yet you are haunted by inner demons. Which vintage pin-up girl are you? (Results contain pictures) brought to you by Quizilla ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ There's nothing that can stop me from this failure that I have become. "I can still see your eyes, I can still see your smile.." "You are a reminder of what I will never be." "And I dont want you to see all the things I hide. When you were holding my hand, I didn't think I'd die." "Once we have nothing, We are free to do anything. I'm trying so hard to show you what you mean to me. All I ever wanted, was you in my arms. All I ever needed, was you in my arms. I'm sorry I ever had feelings for you, and I promise it will never happen again." Hey, like what you see and want to see more??? check out my cousin's band's website at http://www.bloodredsunset.com . They played at the Battle of the Bands - and everyone loved 'em damnit so show your support!! Example: kennywilldie04: haha, if u didnt get the message before u guyz kicked ass at battle of the bands, lol, have music on the web site soon! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ "You're as welcome as cancer, but my door is always unlocked" You belong in the land of darkness, otherwise known as one of the worlds in which I dwell. All here is beauty inspired by tragedy and great sorrow. Write or go through other creative outlets to express the anguish you may be feeling, and never let anyone tell you that you are just being 'weepy' or full of 'teenage angst'(if you're a teenager.If not, then they really should be punished for calling you one. They probably are trying to insult your maturity...fools.)and always remain yourself, dark and amazing. Never change. Where do you belong?(ANIME IMAGES) brought to you by Quizilla   post comment

-x- SeNsEs FaiL -x- [12 Mar 2004|11:08pm] [ mood | tired ] [ music | ..at 11:30?? I don't think so...way to wake up tha neighbors ] -:¦:- friends are like stars they come and go but -:¦:- -:¦:- the ones that stay are the ones that glow -:¦:- cuddle and a kiss on the forehead - you like to be close to your special someone and feel warm, comfortable, and needed What Sign of Affection Are You? brought to you by Quizilla I have ASBDA at Westconn tomorrow morning and have to pick up Kevin at like 10 of 8 and im gonna be like a walking f*cking zombie!! Then I gotta work from 2-8..and then I'm gonna try to get to the gym (and I probably won't end up going..)So you may hear from me tomorrow or you may not.. Oh by the way.. I didn't get the job at Circuit City for all of those who are wondering. If you want to know why..ask me yourself..and no, it wasn't because I didn't know alot about electronics..it has to do with STUPID COLLEGE!! GRRRR!! alright it's late and I have to wake up really early tomorrow morning..goodnight my friends.. post comment

..testing..1..2..3.. [11 Mar 2004|08:55pm] You are a human shadow. If a loved one needs you, you are always right at his or her heels! Your deep social connection with human beings produces your qualities of genuine caring and charisma. However, at times you are naive to the true nature of your loved ones. Remember that humans' gift of free will does not always lead them in wise directions. But your essence of love and friendship represent the other precious gifts of humanity. Overall you are a strikingly valuable and innocent being who has a lot to give.(please rate my quiz cuz it took me for freaking ever to create) What Kind of Shadow Are You? (with gorgeous pics) brought to you by Quizilla Your a goddess! Forget angels, its all about you. Angels serve god, right? So why not be a goddess? Hold on there, girl, and easy with the fame. A Goddess is absolutley the most beautiful, powerful, and magic being alive there is, but they can tend to be quite obnoxious. Some goddesses go a little to far with their power, and turn greedy and shallow. Good ones are pure and full of life, and if on earth, flowers sprout at their steps. Others, decided to live in a palace in heaven, with such beauty never knwon. They are very kind and good leaders, but can tend to be a little lazy, jelous, greedy, and obnoxious. What Kind of ANGEL are you? (For Girls only) This Quiz has amazingly Beautiful Pictures! brought to you by Quizilla post comment

{{ .:*All that glitters in this world is sure to fade away... *:.}} [11 Mar 2004|06:42pm] [ mood | indifferent ] [ music | ..pure silence.. ] omg I am just falling apart. I just typed an entire entry and clicked on the emotion link by accident and lost my entire entry..grrr..anywho I'm just gonna try to make it as similar as possible to the one i just wrote about 5 minutes ago. Okay I have good news and bad news. The good news is I applied to Circuit City online last night and got a call on my answering machine from this guy at 11:22 saying that he wants me to call him up to set up and interview. I called him up tonight and I have an interview there at 4 tomorrow..I'm really nervous..This probably means I'll be getting a new job because Circuit City sounds desperate for help. The bad news is my Dad has decided to put the condo up on the market and he's looking for something in the Bethel/ Danbury area. There are up and down sides to this though. If I end up going to WCSU and I don't get accepted to Southern, I'd a have a home right near by..which is def. a good thing {laundry and shit}..another upside is i'll be able to meet some people and possibly get some friends!!!! Yes i'm still recovering from losing all my friends..umm..a down side is I'm leaving all my many friends from Norwalk!! {being very sarcastic about the many part}..I want to get the f*ck out of here to be honest with you..I have little to nothing here anymore.. Last night I spent an hour and a half trying to figure out my algebra homework. now here's a minor problem with algebra..I SUCK AT IT!! so it took me forever or w/e today but my work payed off..I got a 90 in it today!! I was soo happy! and i did it all by my self. I think my mom thought my head was gonna explode from all the hard thinking I was doing. Mrs Bakes teaches so fast and I usually can't keep up so I just try to figure it out on my own.. I did good this time though..I feel fulfilled now lol. I feel like doing a quizie right now..I need something to do..maybe my homework would b a smart thing..I'll do that later..I'm gonna go now.. Quote of the day: "I don't mind making jokes, but I don't want to look like one." -Marilyn Monroe   Why do your eyes paralyze me What makes me feel this way Just carry me away with silence and heartbeats As rapid thinking about your embrace and how it makes me feel I just want to feel this way forever Sleep on portraits painted as perfect as you Why have I been given the chance to fly When I'm not with you I feel lesser alone I remember your face / imprinted on angels Your voice as beautiful / as the sounds of waves crashing against my heart Time slows down when you look at me I'm infatuated with this / infatuated with you It's so hard for me to understand why I hadn't found you before don't dull away post comment

{{ .:*All that glitters in this world is sure to fade away... *:.}} [10 Mar 2004|04:48pm] [ mood | uncomfortable ] [ music | ..pure silence.. ] I'm not having a good day at ALL.. i just need some time away.. :'(  i need a hug..this isn't cute..I'm depressed for like no reason whatsoever..I need to get checked out or something.. i don't know why I feel this way..im trying to be content..but its not working..in about an hour ill be as happy as can be again i bet..i'm just tired of everything.. leave me alone, please.. post comment

..fat..fat..fat..fat..fat..fat.. [08 Mar 2004|03:51pm] [ mood | drained ] [ music | ambush makeover on tha tv.. ] OI! lol i need a nap! I ended up working from 2-close yesterday --> waaay too long of a day. But I got a nice little end to my day :) Umma..today was a poopie day..it started snowing again {{grr}} and it was really cold..when is it gonna be warm alll the time?!?!?!?!?!?!?! I came home and started eating and eating and eating..i don't know why but I was sooo hungry!! I feel soo freaking fat now tho..i had to unbutton my pants..{{tear}}..i really need to get to the gym more..im paying for the gym and i rarely use it!! grr.. oh well, since i've joined i've lost 7 lbs. so im not completely bummed..tonight im going to see Passion of Christ..i saw some parts of it..i'm not going to eat before I go..that's for sure..oh well..ill let you know later how it was..c-yaz!! muuuuuuaaaaaaaaah! post comment

..busy day.. [07 Mar 2004|02:08pm] [ mood | busy ] [ music | college football.. ] I woke up at 10 again today - late for me..My mom made eggs for breakfast and I'm sick of eggs.. I'm trying to get a decent car..right now my parents are planning on trading in the saturn and buick and getting me a new car..even if they have to pay money!! wow..i never thought this would happen. I went online and finally got in touch with someone who could help me with my layout!! thank you Billie and Kim!! i appreciate it soo much!! i was lost w/o u...I have to work from 2-8 yes I'm late..and afterwards I dont know what tha hell I'm doing..Ill write later.. <3 yaz thanks girls again!! 1 comment|post comment

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